My Journey From Sufferer to Survivior

Childhood

At this stage i was fine, i think.....

I was never a confident child nor was i a popular child. I had a few friends and my family. My family consists of my Mum and Dad and my two sisters (Sadie and Chloe).

Even as a teenager when i hada good diet and regualr exercise i had issues with my body. I had generous thighs and bum. I remember some of the comments from the other children and i had to wear leggings in PE that did not help and only emphasised that area of my body.

I left school very shy and not in touch with anyone from there. I had a few friends, Kelly who imet when i was around 12 years old at guide camp and a few work colleagues. I was size 10and weight around 10 stone.

Young Adult

I moved out of home at 18 years old and moved in with a girl from work, Lucy. Lucy helped bring me out of my shell, i began to get a social life and made some friends. By the point i was working in the White Hart pub in Retford. With this came lots of drinking and my body shape began to change. I still wasnt fat but i did put someweight on and became a size 12,imsureof how much i weighed as my obsession did not excist.

Move to Nottingham 

At age 20 i left Retford and moved to Nottingham. Again i was still working in bars. I was in a 'long term relationship' and age 21 my weight had gone up to 13st 8lbs. I was a size 16. This is when i started my first 'proper diet. I joined weight watchers and in 3 months i had lost 23 lbs and weighed under 12 stone.

Breakup

In summer 2002 aged 22 i split with my long term boyfriend became single. I was happy. I did not worry about my weight. I started dating again straight away, this lasted 6 months. I found this break up very hard as i felt i was gong through both break ups together.

Drug Culture

Around this time i started taking speed regualry when i went out, i love the buzz and the extra confidence. One of the side effects was weight loss and i was a size 12 again.I was happy and confident. This is alsoaround the time i stared self harming and cutting my wrists. I never cut badly as i didnt want to die i wanted the relief that it made me feel. I moved into a shared house and it started off ok, by the time in moved out a year later i hated it and was cutting myself everyday. In February 2004 i moved out and one week later found myself pregnant.....i never cut again.

Pregnancy

to be continued.........

So, ive got this site to record my journey from fat to thin.....wish me luck!